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a_littlefaith) wrote2017-03-04 07:46 pm
a_littlefaith) wrote2017-03-04 07:46 pm
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The past few weeks have been weird and stressful and difficult in a lot of ways. She's not in school, she has an entirely different routine, and she misses Kili pretty much all the time. After going to his place and taking his bow and arrows, she'd spent a long time trying to figure out what to do with them. In the end, she'd snapped off the head of one arrow and dulled it down carefully, then strung it on the same chain where she wears her cross.
Now it clinks softly against the metal, comforting her. It isn't enough, it doesn't give her her best friend back, but it does something and that's all she can ask for right now.
There are a few constants in her life and for that she's grateful. Music helps her, it gives her something to focus on, and she writes about everything she's feeling. About Kili and everything he gave her.
And so she still takes gigs in bars and cafes. There are musicians who are working with her now, but tonight she's playing on her own, playing some of her older songs and some of her newer ones, the ones she's written since her death, since Daryl's disappearance, songs about everything she's done, songs about Curtis, though she's careful to never mention him by name, because he comes to see her play and she knows people don't always like hearing their names in song.
If he listens, though, he might figure out which ones are about him.
It's a good show and she's not entirely subdued, getting into the atmosphere and by the time she's done, she's smiling. Curtis is here tonight and she intends on heading over to him, but first she has to pack up and that takes a few minutes, leaving her by the stage as people talk and drink around her.
Now it clinks softly against the metal, comforting her. It isn't enough, it doesn't give her her best friend back, but it does something and that's all she can ask for right now.
There are a few constants in her life and for that she's grateful. Music helps her, it gives her something to focus on, and she writes about everything she's feeling. About Kili and everything he gave her.
And so she still takes gigs in bars and cafes. There are musicians who are working with her now, but tonight she's playing on her own, playing some of her older songs and some of her newer ones, the ones she's written since her death, since Daryl's disappearance, songs about everything she's done, songs about Curtis, though she's careful to never mention him by name, because he comes to see her play and she knows people don't always like hearing their names in song.
If he listens, though, he might figure out which ones are about him.
It's a good show and she's not entirely subdued, getting into the atmosphere and by the time she's done, she's smiling. Curtis is here tonight and she intends on heading over to him, but first she has to pack up and that takes a few minutes, leaving her by the stage as people talk and drink around her.