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Jul. 13th, 2017 03:36 pmIt's not like she and Curtis are wanting for time alone, but their unique situation does sort of make it so their intimate moments have to sometimes be a little on the rushed side and, more often than not, a lot on the quiet side, which has been a bit of a challenge for Beth. She likes to hear him, likes knowing what she's doing to him, and she likes being vocal, too, which is one of those things she never expected of herself.
Of course, there's a whole slew of things she likes that she never expected.
Years ago now, she'd talked to Olive about it all, had admitted how worried she'd been, if it meant something was wrong with her that she liked when Daryl fisted his fingers in her hair and pulled, but Olive had done wonders in reassuring her it was very normal. Then Daryl had disappeared and Beth, in some weird effort to distance herself from that, had made sure anything she might be able to relate to him in some way didn't enter into her relationship with Curtis.
She's beginning to realize now just how unfair she's been to herself. To Curtis, too. Maybe it's something she discovered with Daryl, but he'd been her first everything, more or less, and she isn't going to keep herself from Curtis just because someone else had been there before him. It doesn't make sense for her to keep the rest of it from him either and so she's showing up at his place this afternoon with an idea, at least, of what she might do. It's not a plan, it's nothing so solid as that, but they both know why she's coming here in the middle of the afternoon when they both have time off and Yona, Carl, and Judith are all otherwise occupied.
She's a little nervous, she realizes, as she waits for him to answer the door. And she sort of likes that.
Of course, there's a whole slew of things she likes that she never expected.
Years ago now, she'd talked to Olive about it all, had admitted how worried she'd been, if it meant something was wrong with her that she liked when Daryl fisted his fingers in her hair and pulled, but Olive had done wonders in reassuring her it was very normal. Then Daryl had disappeared and Beth, in some weird effort to distance herself from that, had made sure anything she might be able to relate to him in some way didn't enter into her relationship with Curtis.
She's beginning to realize now just how unfair she's been to herself. To Curtis, too. Maybe it's something she discovered with Daryl, but he'd been her first everything, more or less, and she isn't going to keep herself from Curtis just because someone else had been there before him. It doesn't make sense for her to keep the rest of it from him either and so she's showing up at his place this afternoon with an idea, at least, of what she might do. It's not a plan, it's nothing so solid as that, but they both know why she's coming here in the middle of the afternoon when they both have time off and Yona, Carl, and Judith are all otherwise occupied.
She's a little nervous, she realizes, as she waits for him to answer the door. And she sort of likes that.