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Beth Greene ([personal profile] a_littlefaith) wrote2018-02-04 02:11 pm
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Bit by bit, she's coming back around.

Beth wouldn't say she's over the things that have happened, she knows she can't say she's no longer thinking about Curtis all the time when she knows she still is, but over the past few weeks or so, things have gotten a little bit easier every day until she finds herself reaching out to people she hasn't seen as often as she knows she would like to say she has. It isn't their fault, she knows it's hers, she'd pulled away from everyone a little in the weeks after Curtis had disappeared, but it's not in her nature to be so isolated and so she knows it's time to reach out again.

She's lucky her friends are understanding, lucky they know what it's like to lose someone and don't hold it against her.

Jenny agrees to meet her easily enough and Beth suggests one of the cozier coffee shops in the city, one with big comfy chairs and hot drinks that probably have enough sugar in them to last her a whole week. There's still a significant chill in the air and where Beth might normally suggest a walk in the park or doing something fun outdoors, she thinks this is a better idea for now. It gives them a chance to really talk.

She arrives before Jenny and finds them a spot in one of the back corners, claiming the small, two person couch for them before anyone else can get it, and then she settles in to wait.
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[personal profile] notverywise 2018-02-26 08:24 am (UTC)(link)
"I can promise you now that I'll be taking you up on that," Jenny says, laughing as she does. It is, at least, easy to find the humor in all of this, when she isn't terrified or furious or some combination of the two. It will be fine, she's sure; if they couldn't manage it at least financially, Cameron would have said so by now, and it isn't as if she meant to have only one child and leave it at that. She just expected that she would be having one at a time. Once they're born, though, the twins, her children, she has a feeling she'll feel perhaps counterintuitively a little less daunted. Right now, it's the thought of labor that she finds most intimidating, though at least there's a long way to go until then.

"I still can hardly believe it. I don't know why we didn't consider that this might happen. I know it's rare, but since he's a twin..."
notverywise: (so make believe in miracles instead)

[personal profile] notverywise 2018-02-28 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
"Of course they will," Jenny says warmly. That much, as far as she's concerned, speaks for itself. Worried as she may occasionally be about her own parenting abilities — she has far more confidence in Cameron's — there isn't a doubt in her mind that the people she's close to will be amazing with her children. Things have worked out remarkably well that way. Besides, she already knows how good Beth has been with Judith; it will be easy, when the time comes, to trust her with the twins, as strange as it is to start thinking ahead like that.

Her whole life is going to change. She's terrified and thrilled all at once.

"I'm already counting on you to give them their first guitar lessons."
notverywise: (who's to show no fear?)

[personal profile] notverywise 2018-03-04 09:21 am (UTC)(link)
"Thank you," Jenny says, just a little softer, appreciative and relieved and a dozen other things at once. She had worried, a little, knowing that she's been so lucky where others haven't, not wanting to add insult to any injury. Granted, she hadn't expected Beth to react poorly, either, but seeing her friend so excited is still a weight off her shoulders. It makes her lucky, too, she thinks. This undertaking is a rather terrifying one, and there's an unspeakable comfort in knowing that she'll have someone besides her husband who's so eager to help. "It's — It seems right, you know? The timing is good, I'm not working yet, we have money... I said to Cameron when we first talked about it, if we're going to do it, we should do it now. This may be more than we expected, but even so."

It's twice as much work, but she still believes that they can do this. Her worries are, at least for the time being, mostly outweighed by her excitement, which seems promising.
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[personal profile] notverywise 2018-03-13 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
"We got lucky," Jenny says, deeply earnest, not about to downplay that for a second. She may have only one other relationship to compare this to, and it really isn't fair to do so given the circumstances of that, but even before she knew what was going on, she and David were never really on the same page. What she wanted was what he could give her, and in the end, it turned out he couldn't do that after all. Perhaps that was even for the best, no matter what came of it at the time. She'd have been stuck with him otherwise, and she doubts she would ever have been as happy as she's found herself here. "In... so many ways, really. I'm still not entirely sure how we managed that."

She's not naïve enough to assume that luck will continue, but she would like to at least hope that it might, that the life they've built for themselves here will be a lasting one. She'll never know, though, if she doesn't give it a try, and she isn't about to deny herself anything on some distant chance that she might lose it one day. She hasn't had to compromise so far. There's no reason why that should change.