Huffing, Kili lowers his eyes, opting to pick at a thread on his trousers that doesn't actually exist rather than hold her gaze. Beth is merely trying to help, he knows that, and he does love her dearly for it; but that doesn't change how foolish he feels about bringing this up in the first place. It's true that Beth is one of the very few people he'd feel comfortable speaking to about this, even though it is a bit awkward. If she teases, it isn't mean-spirited, and she's hardly one to be judgmental.
Even so, he can feel his shoulders stiffening as she explains the different ways he might pleasure Tauriel, and after a moment of silence, he finally lifts his eyes to meet hers again.
"I've-- I've touched her, yes," he says, "but I do fear I haven't been entirely upfront with her about what I know. I've never been with another in that manner, I told her that, but for all that I'm knowingly outspoken about so many things, I never have been about things like this. Asking my mother would have been impossible. My uncle had far more important matters to attend to, so did my other elders, and Fili... Well, Fili would be kind but only after a bit of teasing."
Biting down on his lip, he shifts a little to better face Beth, fixing her with a serious expression. "The night we had our date to the planetarium," he says, "we did little in the way of gazing at the stars. I touched her, like I said, nearly undressed her, and she seemed to quite enjoy it. I just don't want to disappoint her when the time comes to do more."
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Even so, he can feel his shoulders stiffening as she explains the different ways he might pleasure Tauriel, and after a moment of silence, he finally lifts his eyes to meet hers again.
"I've-- I've touched her, yes," he says, "but I do fear I haven't been entirely upfront with her about what I know. I've never been with another in that manner, I told her that, but for all that I'm knowingly outspoken about so many things, I never have been about things like this. Asking my mother would have been impossible. My uncle had far more important matters to attend to, so did my other elders, and Fili... Well, Fili would be kind but only after a bit of teasing."
Biting down on his lip, he shifts a little to better face Beth, fixing her with a serious expression. "The night we had our date to the planetarium," he says, "we did little in the way of gazing at the stars. I touched her, like I said, nearly undressed her, and she seemed to quite enjoy it. I just don't want to disappoint her when the time comes to do more."