Beth Greene (
a_littlefaith) wrote2018-02-04 02:11 pm
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Bit by bit, she's coming back around.
Beth wouldn't say she's over the things that have happened, she knows she can't say she's no longer thinking about Curtis all the time when she knows she still is, but over the past few weeks or so, things have gotten a little bit easier every day until she finds herself reaching out to people she hasn't seen as often as she knows she would like to say she has. It isn't their fault, she knows it's hers, she'd pulled away from everyone a little in the weeks after Curtis had disappeared, but it's not in her nature to be so isolated and so she knows it's time to reach out again.
She's lucky her friends are understanding, lucky they know what it's like to lose someone and don't hold it against her.
Jenny agrees to meet her easily enough and Beth suggests one of the cozier coffee shops in the city, one with big comfy chairs and hot drinks that probably have enough sugar in them to last her a whole week. There's still a significant chill in the air and where Beth might normally suggest a walk in the park or doing something fun outdoors, she thinks this is a better idea for now. It gives them a chance to really talk.
She arrives before Jenny and finds them a spot in one of the back corners, claiming the small, two person couch for them before anyone else can get it, and then she settles in to wait.
Beth wouldn't say she's over the things that have happened, she knows she can't say she's no longer thinking about Curtis all the time when she knows she still is, but over the past few weeks or so, things have gotten a little bit easier every day until she finds herself reaching out to people she hasn't seen as often as she knows she would like to say she has. It isn't their fault, she knows it's hers, she'd pulled away from everyone a little in the weeks after Curtis had disappeared, but it's not in her nature to be so isolated and so she knows it's time to reach out again.
She's lucky her friends are understanding, lucky they know what it's like to lose someone and don't hold it against her.
Jenny agrees to meet her easily enough and Beth suggests one of the cozier coffee shops in the city, one with big comfy chairs and hot drinks that probably have enough sugar in them to last her a whole week. There's still a significant chill in the air and where Beth might normally suggest a walk in the park or doing something fun outdoors, she thinks this is a better idea for now. It gives them a chance to really talk.
She arrives before Jenny and finds them a spot in one of the back corners, claiming the small, two person couch for them before anyone else can get it, and then she settles in to wait.
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She just never imagined twins as part of that.
"I mean, I think we can do it, but I suppose this is what I get for marrying someone who's a twin himself. Genetics, or something like that."
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It's something she's always wanted for herself, a family, children, but she doesn't know if that's going to happen for her any longer. For the most part, she thinks she's accepted it, but it does mean she wants to be able to spend time with her friend's children as often as she can.
"They can come over whenever you need a break," she says. "I'd be happy to look after 'em and Judith loves littler kids."
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"I still can hardly believe it. I don't know why we didn't consider that this might happen. I know it's rare, but since he's a twin..."
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She's glad things are working out for Jenny and Cameron, too. There are probably people who might think Beth has every right to be jealous or be sad that these things aren't happening for her, but she's never been that sort of person. Regardless of what's going on in her life, she can be happy for those around her, happy for the people she loves without even the slightest flicker of jealousy. There's nothing to be sad about, not when she knows she'll get to share in that love, too.
"They're gonna love me," she promises with a grin. "I'll be the cool aunt with all the instruments and stuff."
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Her whole life is going to change. She's terrified and thrilled all at once.
"I'm already counting on you to give them their first guitar lessons."
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It's so exciting to see her taking this step.
"Wow," she says, then shakes her head. Her smile has grown a little softer and she tilts her head, then sighs. "I'm so happy for you guys. I know it's a big deal and it changes so many things, but it's such a wonderful thing. I'm glad it's happening for you."
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It's twice as much work, but she still believes that they can do this. Her worries are, at least for the time being, mostly outweighed by her excitement, which seems promising.
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Curtis had been solid and dependable and with him, for a little while, she'd felt like there could be another plan made. Something else for her to follow over the next several years, but now he's gone, too. For Beth, it doesn't seem like there's ever going to be a good time for starting a family, never mind the fact that she's not even close to having someone she would want to do that with.
She wishes she had a plan.
"I'm glad you guys are on the same page," she says with a wistful sort of smile. "That counts for so much. All the time you hear about people who just aren't, but you guys..." She trails off and shrugs happily. "It's just really nice to see that."
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She's not naïve enough to assume that luck will continue, but she would like to at least hope that it might, that the life they've built for themselves here will be a lasting one. She'll never know, though, if she doesn't give it a try, and she isn't about to deny herself anything on some distant chance that she might lose it one day. She hasn't had to compromise so far. There's no reason why that should change.
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They're both such good people and Beth may not know Cameron all that well, but she does know Jenny well and she honestly believes anyone Jenny chooses to love has to be someone worthwhile and someone worthy. A man who deserves the good fortune this place has given him. Everything else is just secondary, she's sure of it. They're lucky and they deserve it. The how will never matter.
"So what are you guys doin' to prepare?" she asks. "I guess you have to get a nursery ready for them. I know I've got a lot of stuff goin' on, but if you need any help, just let me know."